Entry number one...
Aug 28, 2013 1:26:59 GMT
Post by Goldenfleeced on Aug 28, 2013 1:26:59 GMT
Well, I finally did it, I think... I have made another place for myself to write, and think out loud, and maybe... if I'm really lucky... maybe I will get to talk to somebody today, who cares about any of the things that I seem to care about. That would be great.
I've actually been reading some of these forums for many years now... you might not know it, since I was never really very loud, and I preferred to post anonymously for a long time; I fought the need to 'identify oneself,' since the whole issue of identity on these forums is moot, anyway. You are who you say that you are... no more, and no less. If that happens to jibe with any sort of reality, away from the forum, then your acquaintances are most fortunate; and even if it does, reality seems to be quite subjective, at best... especially from a distance. There is every probability that your 'reality' and my 'reality' may never meet, regardless that they are both very 'real.' Unless we are at a very close proximity, our 'realities' will diverge... it can't help but be that way. We can share our thoughts, and various points of commonality throughout the day, but not our 'reality;' even the sky is not, in reality, the same for me as it is for you right now. It is a sky... but not the same sky. And we may share this moment, but it is not the same moment for you as it is for me... why, I could be talking to someone in Australia, where it is another time altogether than it is here, and yet... there we are, inhabiting the same moment, but not the same reality. Not at all. In order to share the same 'reality,' it seems that we have to share the same 'vision.' We have to see the same thing, at the same time... we really do have to share the same 'point of view,' or 'point of reference.'
One of my great regrets is that I was not able to be close enough to some of my friends to actually share their 'vision,' and we were never really able to share our 'reality' for that reason, I think... it would have been nice to share some time in a 'real' life. I would have liked that, very much.
Failing that... I tried to meet some other minds on these forums; I got more than I bargained for, there... but I never really did meet any other 'people,' it seemed like... just avatars. If I had one real wish for this forum... this journal... or 'wish book' of mine... it would be to meet some other 'real' people through it; not in 'real life,' but more just as 'real' people... without such need of masks and pretense. Maybe there are others like me out there; I can't help thinking that at least some of these people must have real lives, that include some interesting things, or thoughts, that they would like to share with somebody, too, from time to time (after all, I actually work full time, plus, and I can't just be sitting around here all day, much as I might like to, sometimes)... in a place where they won't be 'judged,' nor thought badly of for having said it. I hope that you would give me the same consideration... and that's really all I ask, except for a little bit of truth. It's a good place to start, anyway...
And, who really knows where we might end up... I believe in all kinds of things.
I've actually been reading some of these forums for many years now... you might not know it, since I was never really very loud, and I preferred to post anonymously for a long time; I fought the need to 'identify oneself,' since the whole issue of identity on these forums is moot, anyway. You are who you say that you are... no more, and no less. If that happens to jibe with any sort of reality, away from the forum, then your acquaintances are most fortunate; and even if it does, reality seems to be quite subjective, at best... especially from a distance. There is every probability that your 'reality' and my 'reality' may never meet, regardless that they are both very 'real.' Unless we are at a very close proximity, our 'realities' will diverge... it can't help but be that way. We can share our thoughts, and various points of commonality throughout the day, but not our 'reality;' even the sky is not, in reality, the same for me as it is for you right now. It is a sky... but not the same sky. And we may share this moment, but it is not the same moment for you as it is for me... why, I could be talking to someone in Australia, where it is another time altogether than it is here, and yet... there we are, inhabiting the same moment, but not the same reality. Not at all. In order to share the same 'reality,' it seems that we have to share the same 'vision.' We have to see the same thing, at the same time... we really do have to share the same 'point of view,' or 'point of reference.'
One of my great regrets is that I was not able to be close enough to some of my friends to actually share their 'vision,' and we were never really able to share our 'reality' for that reason, I think... it would have been nice to share some time in a 'real' life. I would have liked that, very much.
Failing that... I tried to meet some other minds on these forums; I got more than I bargained for, there... but I never really did meet any other 'people,' it seemed like... just avatars. If I had one real wish for this forum... this journal... or 'wish book' of mine... it would be to meet some other 'real' people through it; not in 'real life,' but more just as 'real' people... without such need of masks and pretense. Maybe there are others like me out there; I can't help thinking that at least some of these people must have real lives, that include some interesting things, or thoughts, that they would like to share with somebody, too, from time to time (after all, I actually work full time, plus, and I can't just be sitting around here all day, much as I might like to, sometimes)... in a place where they won't be 'judged,' nor thought badly of for having said it. I hope that you would give me the same consideration... and that's really all I ask, except for a little bit of truth. It's a good place to start, anyway...
And, who really knows where we might end up... I believe in all kinds of things.
